SerenitySavage

I have concluded that I will be single for the better part of the next decade. These years are for my children. Plus, no man walking the face of this earth will jump into a relationship with a single mother of three with a lifelong debilitating disease. Who could blame them? Why is a woman that doesn’t need a man so scary? It’s not like I can turn men to stone. That was just the first guy.

My Valentine red Is the shine of taillights  As he drives away To the souls left alone On a day that highlights love Grab some of it for yourself  When dreams dreamt Become memory dust You are with you  Till death do you part Appreciate what you have inside  Before it’s gone

I only want love if it’s free To come and go as it pleases The kind of love that waits all year Just to spend five minutes with me It is the same now  That is was three years ago That it will be six years from now No chase What is meant for me  Will always find me Taste my trauma and still Ask me for a second helping I’m at a place in my life Where the lies don’t stick They do not belong to me The lies belong to someone else The ones you’re with When you’re not thinking of me The deceits are not my worry Only come here  When you need truth 

There is no chase left in these legs They followed love for fourteen years But I just couldn’t keep up And as I lay in my misery  I found more love to chase More mistakes to make I have learned a lot Broken on the bathroom floor  I sure did learn a lot But I don’t want to learn no more The saddest years of my life  I spent chasing hunters   That could never be caught Better predators that I The more foreign the better They can run farther than ever I have learned a lot Beaten down on the kitchen floor I sure did learn a lot But I don’t want to learn no more My feet don’t seek to follow These daydreams anymore Those men can just keep running  Trying to escape themselves  Just as much as they are me Who will tell them they’ll never be free? I have learned a lot Broken on the bedroom floor I sure did learn a lot But I damn sure don’t want to learn no more 

Show me the ugliest parts of you  Only then can you stay Give your beauty away to the world  I just want the pieces  That you don’t dare share With anyone else The words you haven’t written  The art you’ve yet to make 

The oldest piece of the Earth  Are zircon crystals 4.4 billion years old and Twice the width of a human hair But I have been here longer This tapestry of blue veins Creeping down my aging legs Has navigated eternity I saw you there once Our stardusts have Dipped and swayed Through many a universe together  You may never see  What I look like in the snow What color the cold air Turns my cheeks You might never see How electric green  My eyes can be When they cry  You will not be holding my hand  When this body ceases to breathe But you remember  And I will see you there You know me endlessly Reality will conquer the lies You’ve always told yourself  Just succumb to it

Maybe I have learned  The art of the haunt The ability to keep them Looking for me out of The corner of their eyes Leaving words To ring in their ears  For my eternity Like an albino doe  The black stag  Was lucky enough to see He can not be sad that she Ran off into the woods Before he got to kill her He should just feel lucky To have ever been graced  By her presence  In the first place I remain in search  Of the deer that doesn’t  Get spooked By the crunch Of the lonely leaves