Fuck Blue Cross

You guys want to know how aggravatingly difficult it is to be chronically sick in America? I have done it more than once, but let me tell you again.

For the past two years, I have been on Stelara injections every 8 weeks for my Crohn’s disease. I am currently in remission thanks to the help of this drug that is priced at over $20,000 for a single 90mg shot.

Take note that I said I have been on this drug for two years.

I am due my next injection tomorrow. Last week I called the hospital pharmacy because they had not called me yet to refill the medication.

I was told that the insurance is requiring another pre authorization in order to fill the script. They don’t just process these astronomically priced drugs unless they get insurance approval first.

Forget the fact that the prescription itself is a pre authorization from the doctor. She says I need it, so what is the problem?

The problem is that these fucks want to make it harder for me, they want me to give up. I spent 45 minutes on the phone today with Blue Cross only for them to give me some textbook generic response. 

They said they have not heard from the doctor’s office yet. That is a lie, because I have been in touch with the doctor and the pharmacy multiple times over the past week. They have both reached out to Blue Cross themselves. 

So poor Ramon, the Blue Cross operator, got a nice cursing out today. I told him that “you guys may not give a damn about whether I get my medication on time, but I do.” I told him I wasn’t sure how he slept at night knowing how disgusting the company he works for is and then I asked him if he got bonuses every time he told someone no. Before he could answer I told him to fuck off and hung up on him.

Did Ramon deserve my anger? No, probably not, but who is my fight with? Who can I complain to that will do anything to help me?

It is never ending and it will be like this for the rest of my life.

Only it will get worse when this Big Beautiful Bitch of a Bill goes into effect and I lose the Affordable Care Act. Those white men that danced gleefully as that bill was signed don’t give a single fuck about me or my family.

So maybe this is my way out of this bullshit. I will lose my insurance, my doctors, and my medication. I won’t be able to afford the colonoscopy I need every year in order to remove the precancerous growths that keep coming. They can just turn to colon cancer and I can be done with this hateful life.

I’ve been sick for a decade. I don’t know how much longer I can sustain my mental or physical health. I don’t want to fight anymore for anything. 

So, I did the only aggressive thing I know to do. I just made appointments with all my specialists before this year ends. I will have every goddamned test they want to throw at me and make Blue Cross pay for it while I still have insurance to work with. Purely out of spite, because I am tired of caring about my health. I’ve tried for ten years to keep myself healthy. I’m just ready to give up.