SerenitySavage

Sometimes I do things just to prove to myself that I am strong enough to go through with them. I was at the lawyers office the very next day after I found out my ex-husband knocked up the help. She asked me, “Are you sure you want to go through with this?” My response was a quick “Yes” while I thought to myself, there is no other option, of course I’m going through with it! After my divorce, when the lease was up on our minivan, I decided to go to the Honda dealership myself to negotiate purchasing it. I knew they would see me as a walking target. I knew they would try to screw me over, and that exactly what they did.  So I politely said “No thanks” and walked out of there after wasting about two hours of mine and that slick ass salesman’s time. I needed to prove that I could stand up for myself. The following day I went to my bank and was able to secure a loan for the van and now 7 years later, it’s mine, free and clear. I have always been bold with men. I am overly honest and ass...

Unfortunately I am a poet I will have whole relationships  Written inside my head Without your want or permission I see the worst at their best And turn them into poetry Write whatever it is That I want them to say I can bring a tear to your eye When all you want to do is laugh Unfortunately I write poems For people who don’t even read them A romancer with a pen and paper  When love is nothing But a bluff I don’t have to worry about what may Fall from my mind to my hand Because it is all written in truth There is no deceit in me I don’t need secret telegrams  To get my sharpest points across You ruin your own lives  Without any of my help Unfortunately I’m not afraid To look stupid  After all I was married once  My wedding night an epitaph  And I reign over  My metaphorical threats They all end up scared of me When they should be scared of themselves  Unfortunately 

In my pre-corpse years I carry this Sequela That propagates  As the days Stretch on For me Because of me I sleep in it’s warmth  Rise in it’s  Breath Take comfort  In the endless  Vastness And as it depletes  So shall I

You’re in my snow globe Of memories That I shake up Every now and then Just to watch you Dance  While I pretend Not to love you I am  Not sorry For the  Turbulence 

I’ll have to settle For the idea That I can wrench Your heart With my words From afar Make it  Skip Or Beat  Even though You’ve lost The privilege  Of me Like your favorite Television show  That went  Off the air This will always feel unfinished

The weight of this world  Rests on my jaw While I sleep Grinding it’s way Up from the deep  Caverns of my mind Cracking my teeth Locking my jaw  Full of dry mouth cavities There is no escape Even in my dreams

Now Whenever  You cross  The road  Of my mind Instead of holding  Your hand I will simply  Push you Into the traffic