SerenitySavage

Every man I have ever known Has lead to disappointMENt Left me with a certain amount If embarrassMENt They laMENt to me their problems Without trying to tend to mine If the weekly ornaMENt Doesn’t fit his arrangeMENt  Then off to the next  Fresh entangleMENt From MENacing oMENs Even deMENtia couldn’t forget EmpowerMENt comes From lies that were  Never bought and spent  I often wonder If I am their  Most disappointing  WoMAN

How will you remember me? I have harnessed the ability  To grab people by the shirt collar And shake them  From a distance  With my words So you don’t get to treat me Anyway you’d like Without getting repaid in kind By my memory So you can run away to Italy Venezuela Or Charlotte  But  That random sharp pain  You feel this week Or next year Is my memory  Reminding you  My mask has always  Been see through I am the realest person That you will Ever never know You aren’t the only one To get these vibrations  If I wanted you to remember me You will It’s up to you whether it’s A pleasant experience  Or not

The more special You pretend  That I am to you The less special  You become  To me It’s such cloudy behavior Disingenuous  Popping in  Here and there Just to see If you still have Access to me I don’t know why  I keep expecting men To be real with me When they don’t speak  My language Of honesty I think it’s because  The lips of a liar Are the most delicious 

I do not compete For anyone If you can forget about me Do it Reluctance is your answer Because I have already  Disqualified myself   From the game  I don’t need a man  To play husband Or Daddy I don’t need any more sperm  To make kids I don’t need someone  To hold my hair when I’m sick Or even ask if I’m ok I can have a whole relationship  In my head  Without you  I have been telling you goodbye  Since the day we met  I never wanted a hamster Trapped in a ball Be free when you are with me Or Be free without me 

Old flames turn to ashes  You can poke the embers if you want But all you’re going to do Is get soot on your hands And the hair singed off your knuckles

Words are like second nature  Thoughts drip off my pen The rhymes just come naturally  This resting bitch’s face is A first level defense mechanism I’m a natural at giving mean Beyond the spite in my eyes  These good genes still provide And I am naturally pretty If you can make me crazy  I will always open the door to you  I naturally excel in crazy The mixture of these qualities  Make me a hard one to forget  Naturally