SerenitySavage

Nothing is ever as it seems From people to their stories and dreams They say one thing only to mean another Drowning in a lake of lies for each other Nobody wants to feel duped Especially minds never on mute Nobody wants to feel the truth Resentful words float in the air, pollute None of this matters except to our pride Our egos cry behind closed eyes What hurts you when you think of me? Are you everything that you claim to be? A stolen image from a borrowed mind Two maybe six or four Does any of this truly matter When left alone behind closed doors? Is it him, is it her? Is it you, is it me? A unique mind is all I see Everything else just deters Brilliance and sanity play tug of war Success in the craft is the only goal Maliciousness a false part of the score This mind reflects both mine and yours A shattered mirror stabs with its shards Time to shuffle a fresh deck of cards No one here is exactly who they seem We are all characters in someone else'

Sometimes I can't stand to hear the sound of my own voice The tone and inflection are not always a free choice It explodes with the force of  gunpowder residue Old annoyances and anger cause my senses to misconstrue Let me eat my tongue, disable vocal chords With children, let me stop drawing the sword They look to me for guidance and security All I can give them is insipid immaturity I don't know what I'm doing with these kids There is no instruction manual for this Forgiving myself is the obstacle faced Everyday of this life's lost race A perfect parent I, like us all, will never be All I can hope is they aren't fucked up permanently Never dreamed I'd be single on this journey Still years to go battling this fury The worst thing to do would be to pass along These flaws I have that I find so wrong The world shouts crazy at the rage I feel I tell you all about it, let you know it's real No one wants to be a defeated mean momma The m