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HIM

It happened beneath a picture of a saint The night HE showed no restraint HE is a common coward, a rapist, a diseased pig Taking advantage of a young girl made HIM feel big HE should consider himself lucky that I left HIM with his dick Just, finally, let me get this off my chest real quick 20 years flew before I could think to blink my eyes But these things do not go away, the feelings survive NO was repeated. NO. I said NO. I pushed away from HIM from below I may have said yes once before, but now NO means much more I should have bit it off, spit it out on the floor Afterwards I am lost, entranced by the light seeping under the bathroom door The water running down the drain Will not wash away HIS shame I am gone before he even knows In the car before any tears start to show The next day HE is sorry, right? Remarks from a phone call by HIM so contrite A mutual girlfriend puts her belief in HIM Sharks of self doubt swim erratically within I did no

Ten Word Tuesday "G"

How would you like to play a silly, time wasting game with me?? I call it ten word Tuesday. Each week I will take a letter of the alphabet and compose a ten word alliteration with it. After reading it, as quickly as you can I'd like you guys to respond with your own renditions. Use whatever words instantly jump into your head. I'd love to hear what you guys have in your minds and can't wait to hear your responses!                                                                 ✨  G  ✨ Gangrene Gary's Goat Gets Grumpy Given Gleeful Glenda's Gross Grapefruit                            

Ten Word Tuesday "F"

How would you like to play a silly, time wasting game with me?? I call it ten word Tuesday. Each week I will take a letter of the alphabet and compose a ten word alliteration with it. After reading it, as quickly as you can I'd like you guys to respond with your own renditions. Use whatever words instantly jump into your head. I'd love to hear what you guys have in your minds and can't wait to hear your responses!                                                                 ✨  F  ✨ Friendly Freddy Flings Fudge For Feisty Figaro's Funny Food Fight                             

Puddle of Lies

Our love was a poker game I got stabbed by the Jack of Hearts With a Joker's spade All it did was sharpen my edges Did you think I needed you? Believed you? Do anything for me? sure as shit wasn't true I learned from the worst possible source That a DICK is more important than any woman I just thought it would take longer to run its course We are all only human Trying to ride full speed on a dead horse You are a firework fuse, a ship docked to cruise Waiting for the next high to pop off Anticipation waits for no bruise From the beginning we were a cocktail Molotov There will be no saving of souls here Instead we are serving so sit down, shut up, and eat You take from me and I'll take from you With both our hearts we chew the beat Tired of giving to people that don't deserve it At least that's what it looks like from where I sit Can't you see? I'm a fucking queen Your all time favorite wet dream You don't get another chance to

Comfortably Depressed

Depression is my home sweet home My worst emotional syndrome It is safe and warm in the dark Snuggled up under cover of night, no spark Depression is a need That one must acknowledge to set free Like a cheating lover that dishonors and lies Still you want more, desperate, it gets you high Blissful as a suicide jump Ignorant as a man named Trump Depression has no permission Favoring darkness like a mortician I was born pink innocent and fresh Not yet a bruise on this heart's flesh The gray crept in and before I could stop it The black pushed me headfirst into it's pit My color is purple now Depression has finally taken a bow It only feeds on what I allow I starved it and pushed it out somehow Depression was my friend But I don't miss that motherfucker I put it to an end Don't know where exactly it went I just know I'll probably see it again

A Green Heart

A green heart Is a thing of art Not pumping blood Colors red and blue A green heart beats to a different hue Jealousy, rage, envy, greed Reside inside growing like a weed Pretty exterior but a heart needs more So many other emotions to explore A green heart like green eyes Every blink brings a new surprise In each green heart grows a red rose Water it with love and kindness Feed it as it grows The green eyed monster with the green heart Will see resentment, hate, and anger all depart A new sense of peace will start The green heart lies patient in the grass Waiting for all the storms to pass

Tired

I am so tired My brain needs to be hotwired This body I'm in works overtime as Crohn's requires Never stopping it's battle, always shots fired I am so tired But tired' not the right word, it's something much higher From years of permanent pain acquired Physical and emotional both unexpired Endless waves of aching, never retired Inside never does what is desired I am so tired On I march as I transpire All this darkness leaves me inspired Certain this pen can be something to be admired Memories and feelings never unaquired I am just so tired

NONNA

Nonna!  Perche'? Why? When your son killed me, all of our eyes cried Where were you? You never even once tried Pictures I sent, letters I wrote All met with coldness, not a single word you spoke My daughter, named after you You have never met and have no plans to Why don't I baptize my children, you ask It is my decision to make, not yours If heaven is where self righteous people like you end up I want no part of it, that complete crock of shit Archaic thought as old as the Roman ruins Nose in the air, pointing your finger like some divine human A different culture you say? So why send your boys over here to stay? Italy.  You put us on the map? All you did was set my trap I took it upon myself to learn your language just to speak with you All I did was love your son, my intentions were always true If I was not good enough, then tell me who is? When this is all your boy, the blame is all his The Juevenile is better? Let me tell you what

Ten Word Tuesday "E"

How would you like to play a silly, time wasting game with me?? I call it ten word Tuesday. Each week I will take a letter of the alphabet and compose a ten word alliteration with it. After reading it, as quickly as you can I'd like you guys to respond with your own renditions. Use whatever words instantly jump into your head. I'd love to hear what you guys have in your minds and can't wait to hear your responses!                                                                 ✨  E  ✨ Electrician Elephant Ears Eddie Eagerly Eats Extra Eggs Everyday Easily                            

MOM PSALM

Mom💖from the first (mom)ent even before the beginning You are my biggest proponent your generous love never thinning but overspilling Mom💖with swift (mom)entum raising baby into teen into me Devotion on each end of the spectrum always never just (mom)entarily Com(ma) She is the pause Phar(ma) The anesthetic troubled thought decongestant Kar(ma) She is a genuine child farmer for a greater cause Dhar(ma) Her children her life's investment Mama has been there through all of my trauma Happiness too like our trip to the islands by the Bahamas Mommy calm me, your angry tsunami This is my Mom Psalm Not a shiny lip gloss but a soothing humble balm You understand what is needed before it is said Show strength when I can not crawl from my depths We have a love that will see no death Always remembering the best of what has occurred When she is gone life will be like a cat with no purr My mother like none other I simply just love h

Ten Word Tuesday "D"

How would you like to play a silly, time wasting game with me?? I call it ten word Tuesday. Each week I will take a letter of the alphabet and compose a ten word alliteration with it. After reading it, as quickly as you can I'd like you guys to respond with your own renditions. Use whatever words instantly jump into your head. I'd love to hear what you guys have in your minds and can't wait to hear your responses!                                                                 ✨  D  ✨ Dirty Dog Drunk Doug Deliberately Drowns Drowsy Drugged Dimebag Debbie                            

one thursday morning with Crohn's

foul vomitus erupts from my stomach purges from my esophagus burning my throat retching in the bowl breathe. is it over? never even begun heaving. heavy Breathing when does my yoga breath sink in? hyper emesis again, again, again minutes. hours gagging on the nausea regurgitating the pain over and over unyielding disgorgement blood vessels explode my hands are tingling legs going numb help. I need help. call. they come same questions repeated get up!  she says I can't move I can't talk get me up! can't you see the jello knees? the ride is cold and bumpy too long. only sympathy. no help I don't remember one face I didn't look at anyone but my son his face buried in his pillow as they pulled me away no dignity resides snot freely flows into my emesis bag, my forehead resting on it my head bobs with the bumps in the road the man beside me holds my back so I may sit up to hurl nothing but noise into my little green bag no flu

Beaver Fever

Big Barnaby Beaver Always the overachiever Chews through forests faster  Than squirrels dodging cars Burly Barry Beaver The master branch weaver Builds his rustic dams Fine enough to sell near and far Bad boy Bradley Beaver Miscreant deceiver Love bombing liar Will leave you misplaced Bodacious Becky Beaver Custom log retriever Was bitten by a deer tick Got spotted fever on her face A colony of beaver friends With bites so bright with gleam But there is delight at the top The highest beaver of your dreams With teeth so fabulous and grand She gnaws ancient trees into sand With her enormous flat waffle tail Queen Beaver will assail your fairytale

Ten Word Tuesday "C"

How would you like to play a silly, time wasting game with me?? I call it ten word Tuesday. Each week I will take a letter of the alphabet and compose a ten word alliteration with it. After reading it, as quickly as you can I'd like you guys to respond with your own renditions. Use whatever words instantly jump into your head. I'd love to hear what you guys have in your minds and can't wait to hear your responses!                                                                 ✨  C ✨ Crazy Catlady Candace Can't Carry Crying Casey Caterpillar's Crooked Cane