SerenitySavage

I lost my youth  To marriage A mistake A lot of us make Since then I have grown old  Watching various men  Pretend Some want to look But never touch In this visual society  I am reduced to a fantasy A crystal ball Of mirrors  Twisting towards  The next sparkle  Under the guise  Of friendship they Try to dominate me Into insecurity  Devalue me A feminine receptacle  Of disposable  Tissue Some men Just want to hurt Which I get Because I too Would much rather Eviscerate  Than stroke  A swollen ego Whatever ache you may feel Is my useless love Drowning in the pit Of your divinity I have never been More happy  To be single  In my entire life

Life connects us  In ways we could  Never imagine Nothing is ever A coincidence  Just a coin flip This is the reason I keep finding people  I wasn’t looking for People I statistically  Should never have Laid eyes on How my heart Can travel to Italy Venezuela Ukraine And back again I am rapt Awestruck  By the random People that hold A significant chunk Of my life  In theirs 

On days when I have to overdose  Myself on nausea medication Just to get out of bed I guess I should be thankful  I still feel anything instead On days that I rage that I am left alone to take care Of our three children I will be thankful they are The brightest lights of my life On days that I miss Simply being a woman I guess I should stay grateful Any man allowed me to Feel that way in the first place On days when my body  Aches and writhes I should just be happy That I can still Open up my eyes And when life Adds even more stress To my shoulders I should just feel fucking lucky I’m not six feet under a boulder