How many times did I tell you that I wanted to write a book while we were together those 14 years? Since you've been gone this past year and a half, I have written 2 plus more. Buying me a laptop was not the encouragement I needed. Leaving me to simmer in my sorrow was not the way to do it. When you shattered the lightbulb and turned the light out, I switched it back on and can see myself more clearly in this new flattering light. I can also see what's in front of me. Infidels and their infidelity. She is ratchet. I am hammer. So, while I may still be as salty as the Dead Sea, and probably always will be, I suppose I should thank you for teaching me that snakes and sheep dress alike. Thank you for returning me to me. Grazie for your brightness, because it did so used to shine. I hope you find your spark again, but I am no longer your lighter fluid. Thank you for this Renaissance. Grazie for stepping up financially when you no longer could emotionally. Thank you or the pieces of...
I keep the men in my closet Wrapped up in weatherproof bags They drape from hangers No one has touched in years I have my favorites Fancy formal dresses That get worn just once A bridal gown drags the ground Locked away in its white body bag Amongst memories best forgotten Then there are the insignificant Testosterone tidbits Scraped from the bottom of my shoes That litter the floor of my closet I should really vacuum those out Boxes of pieces that no longer fit I’m just too damn sentimental To dump them off at the thrift I haven’t bought anything new in a while The Italian stitching and exotic fabrics Really did a number on my style
Look at this man. Can you see the shame in his eyes? I can. That’s the look of a man that abandoned 5 children in the United States only to flee the country, running away from all of his business and personal responsibilities, just to start a third family in some carefree gorgeous paradise. That’s the look of a man that owes my three children and I over $72,000 in back child support and alimony. Not to mention how much he owes to the girl he cheated on me with for the two kids he spawned with her. On a side note, I wonder how she feels about him these days? Doesn’t this man look proud? Just look at him! This 40 plus year old man dressing and acting like he’s still in his 20’s. He’s still so vivid and virile! He has to be in order to keep up with that pretty little young thing he has impregnated. I am highly doubtful she is even out of her 20’s. She didn’t like the fact that I posted this photo of their new happy family on my social media stories a few days ago, so I decided ...
Lovely.
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